An Avant-Garde Memoir of Psychosis, Healing and Love
Disorder is the story of Michael Adams, the man behind the pen name, Israfel Sivad. At 37-years-old, Michael wasn’t sure any longer if he was hipstered out or truly beat. He was a recovering drug addict and alcoholic. He’d been in psych wards, and he’d spent almost a decade writing his second novel. But then, he found himself inspired in a whole new way. He believed he might be falling in love...
Disorder traces Michael’s experiences from a period of homelessness at the age of 32 through his battles with alcoholism and psychosis back to his birth in Southern California. Simultaneously, it weaves a tale of the relationship Michael is trying to build with his girlfriend, Pam.
In this story, the author develops a groundbreaking, nonlinear style that captures both the disjointed madness of psychosis and the natural rhythms of memory. He reveals the reality behind what many of us believe we would never be able to live through: drug addiction, alcoholism and psychotic breaks… and his ability to overcome those demons to discover love, even when it seemed he was already too damaged to let that emotion take hold.
More than a simple collection of poems, We Are the Underground delves into Israfel Sivad's psyche to inspire you to liberate your own. With each carefully defined section, you'll explore inner worlds and find the keys you need to unlock hidden truths. For, as Israfel Sivad demonstrates, it's when we enter our own personal depths that we find true freedom. This poetic journey is your invitation to go deeper than you ever have before. Don't remain content staring at what the rest of the world has already seen. Look through these inspired poems. Unravel Israfel Sivad's "Zodiac Cycle", which contains one poem for every astrological sign in the Western and Chinese zodiacs. Enter the underground, and discover this hidden revolution of souls.
A divine comedy – inverted. Christian Michael Anderson hasn’t been doing so well lately. He’s out of work, out of money, and out of alcohol. But when he loops a stolen rope through the exposed rafters in his ceiling and places that noose around his neck, his adventure has only begun… Encountering joke-telling gargoyles, the “Great Beast” imprisoned in a cage, a drug-dealing Tinkerbell, and much more, Christian eventually realizes he’s entered a psychologically haunted world far beyond anything his nightmares ever envisioned. But it’s not until his final imprisonment in the serpentine city of Pandemonium that he realizes he’s been tricked into confronting his own, personal demons.
A poetic manifesto for the chosen generation. The new age tells stories of souls newly incarnated into this world from an unknown realm. These souls are the “indigo auras.” Their purpose is to illuminate this plane of existence. Indigo Glow shines through with the sensations of these stories. Skirting the borders of reality in an attempt to illustrate the poet’s exotic feelings, it is a wealth of mythological symbolism and a vision of unknown existences. Touching on themes as diverse as love and insanity, politics and mythology, perhaps, by the book’s end, the indigo souls will have completed their task here and will be prepared to leave this world to their counterparts, “the crystal children.”
A dark blue love story coloring the crossroads of the world. Andrew, Charlie, and Michelle have known each other since high school. And it’s no secret, at least to Charlie, that Andrew’s love for Michelle is the main reason his friend wound up in New York City. But on September 11, 2001, as the Twin Towers' collapse rattles the entire City’s very foundations… everything changes. Live inside the life and mind of 24 year old writer Andrew Christian for six months and six days – from 09/07/2001 until 03/13/2002. Come down to the crossroads, fall down upon your knees, ask the Lord above, “have mercy, save me, if you please…”
A poetic journey through the rings of good and evil to rediscover the tree of life. To cope with the emotions ripping him apart inside, Israfel Sivad completed these poems while unemployed in Brooklyn. They were his attempt to break free from the illusion of duality that permeates our culture. Immersing himself in Ginsberg, Bob Dylan, and the Wu-Tang Clan, Israfel Sivad used the world around him for inspiration. With this work, he developed a postmodern philosophy that merged our binary perceptions of male/female, beautiful/ugly, good/evil into a single, unified worldview. Ten years later, this same collection became the jumping off point for Ursprung Collective, a spoken word/music project founded by Israfel Sivad and the composer, gn0m0n.
Poems to resonate with and awaken the gods of the future. Originally conceived as poems to include in his collection “Indigo Glow”, Israfel Sivad’s “Recipe for a Future Theogony” soon took on a life all its own. Realizing (upon his return to New York City from Santa Fe, NM) that his outlook on existence and art was morphing yet again, the artist eventually separated this collection from the poems in his earlier collection. Maturing still more as an artist and a thinker, these poems convey precisely what the collection’s title suggests: the morphology for a world of future divinities.
An attempt to reimagine the classic haiku for a postmodern world. In 2012, limited by the character counts on social media sites like Twitter, Israfel Sivad quickly tried adapting the forum to a playground for his own attempts to express himself via the classical 5-7-5 syllable count of Japanese verse. Aware that the technological environment of social media removed the traditional conceits of nature from the haiku he was attempting to create, Mr. Sivad attempted to adapt the formal structures and meditative techniques of a bygone era to a medium inherently contemporary. The question remains, however, is there ever a place for classical foundations in today’s fractured world?
Telling the tale of the end of an American dream. Written during the height of the wars and conspiracy theories of the first decade of the 21st century, “The American Apocalypse” is Israfel Sivad’s attempt to reconcile our experiences with our beliefs. A collection of short stories, many of which interweave with one another through character and plot, “The American Apocalypse” defies classification. It is an attempt to break the subjective bonds of reality and, by means of schizo-analysis, to liberate you from the tyranny of yourself.
The rational conclusion of a philosophical line of inquiry. Rarely is the academic essay looked at as an artistic product. However, these essays are less an explication of the texts they deal with than they are an exploration of the mind of Israfel Sivad. Hidden between these lines examining everything from John Milton's theology to Chuang Tzu's ontology to Michel Foucault's post-structural epistemology is a skeleton key to the heart of all of Israfel Sivad's endeavors thus far. Although familiarity with the writers dealt with herein would be ideal, Israfel Sivad is less concerned with contributing to objective scholarship than he is with contriving subjective psychology. The question remains: Are these essays truthfully as straightforward as they appear? Or is Israfel Sivad still speaking in riddles?
A dissertation performed in the style of “mythological realism”. The 11 stories and 2 essays of “Psychedelicizations” enter the mind of the writer in an attempt to meld themselves with the mind of their readers. Using a wide array of techniques (ranging everywhere from the academic essay to an email format), Israfel Sivad is finally trying to communicate as simply and succinctly as he can. It’s just that… what he has to say is neither simple nor succinct. By playing upon the range of meanings (from etymological to pop-cultural) in the collection’s title, the author is asking you: Is it time for your soul to be “psychedelicized”?
A full-immersion baptism in the waters of the freeways of life. In an attempt to shatter the placid façade that artists so often seem to feel they must present, Israfel Sivad delves into the nooks and crannies of human psychology to create these stories. These tales are told at the breakneck speed of classic punk rock. Here, Israfel Sivad writes with ferocity and compassion about the darker sagas of the human soul. This is the world we have inherited and this is the world that we will, unfortunately, pass on to others.
Symbolic tales set to the tune of American youth. These 12 stories of American children and teenagers interweave symbolically to form a vision of artistic realities that the characters would never imagine they were living. Amid this origin of what the author calls “mythological realism”, a minimalist writing style emerges to subtly convey concepts of mythological import. The question is: Do you have the keys to untangle Israfel Sivad’s riddles?
An idle mind is the devil’s workshop… In this earliest of Israfel Sivad’s collections of stories, the author lays the intellectual and artistic foundation for all he has done since. Functioning off of the theory that art should “explode” reality, Israfel Sivad set out to capture a surreal interpretation of the world he experienced. These stories begin in the real world, but they leave it for an imagination that has the ability to see the reality lurking behind reality.
Early poems of a young man contemplating the weight of the world thrust upon his shoulders. With these poems, Israfel Sivad began his exploration into the variations of poetic form. He drew upon the inspiration of the masters of British and American poetry in order to begin his journey. By starting from the roots of Shakespeare, Donne, Poe, Whitman, and Eliot, he developed a style appropriate for the postmodern breakdown of structures. Thus, beginning with the simplest of schemata, he found “a form for truth that frees its beauty.”
A lyrical concept album for the teenagers of this world. How can a man ever recreate the sensations of his youth? By returning to the lyrics he wrote for the punk rock bands he played in throughout high school, Israfel Sivad reawakens the sensations of rebellion latent in all of us. He weaves the words he wrote for four different bands together into one poetic tapestry that displays the politics and emotions of teenage vigor. Today, the phrasing itself must convey the violence and the passion of the dancing and stage dives that once upon a time accompanied these lines. Without music behind them, the words themselves stand alone, outside by themselves… The same as the young man who wrote them felt he did.